My name is Dawn. This is a place to send my thoughts out into the lives of others. God has made me a writer and I can say that with passion. This will just be a place to share my writings and experiences with people, release the thoughts that jumble inside of my brain.
I'm in the process of pursuing a clothing line with my best friend Rachelle. She also has a blog. We decided to step into our own blogs and share our walks with God with others. I am beyond excited for the serving to come through the clothing line; God is stirring up alot of dreams and joy already.
I am going on a mission trip to Bolivia for two weeks in June. For the past week I have been trying not to worry about the finances, because I know full well that God can provide; I've heard stories and he has provided for me as well. However, in two weeks I had to raise $890 - that payment is due today - and I am far from it. It's been stressing me out on the inside, but I've been constantly giving that to the Lord. This morning I was crying to God, feeling so useless and helpless, because I don't have the finances to pay for myself and that's extremely clear. I know that God provides, but it's a scary thing as a human being to not have any contribution to the cause. Throughout the day I was processing these thoughts. We are ALL God's instruments; he uses us to fulfill his work here on earth. I felt like I wasn't an instrument throughout this, I couldn't be taking some part in the performance he is putting together. However, God spoke to me. He made me realize that by putting my faith in him, trusting in him, leaning on him for provision whether it be money or just paving the pathway of another step, that was being an instrument. I was showing others that I don't have control, but he does. It was beautiful to me...
Turns out, my cousin did remember to donate to me so she will be today. It made me smile.
God is paving the pathway before us although he already knows every outcome and every detail of every situation we are apart of. Thankfully, he has a plan for me in this Bolivia team. If I am supposed to go, I will - there is no doubt about that with God. I encourage you to realize that as well. God can make his will happen, regardless of the fact that it seems out of reach to us.
I've been reading Mary Oliver's poetry for the past couple days. Incredible. Oh, I just love her poems so much. One thing really caught me today. "of course the darkness keeps its appointment" - wow. That holds so much. God rises the sun and sets it every day, on appointment. He has a way of orchestrating certain things in creation that simply just is the way it is. And that's a beautiful constant of His. On another note... it just sparked something new in my mind. The darkness, coming on appointment, is like spiritual warfare. Satan will constantly try to overcome us with his darkness. Thankfully, God is Light and that overcomes all.
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